Thursday, June 01, 2006

My New Privacy Policy

It occurred to me recently that I am an open book. I don't keep anything about myself private; every aspect of my life is told to someone. I keep some things from some people, but I tell them other things that I don't tell other people. Some people I tell practically everything and what I don't tell them I manage to tell someone else.

I realize that being an open book isn't necessarily a bad trait. It could be worse, I could be completely closed and secretive. I understand that I develop relationships with people through communication and that sharing parts of my life is a way to become closer with someone. That's all good.

The problem is that I can't seem to keep some things to myself. In the past few months there have been things that I have shared that I wish I hadn't; things that only I could understand because they were my feelings, something I had experienced that was special only to me, or just really personal. I'm reminded of a scripture, Luke 2:19, "But Mary kept all these things, and pondered them in her heart".

So, I'm still going to be quite open about myself and my life, but I'm going to keep some things to myself and just ponder them in my heart. I'm already improving; I have one thing (just one) that I haven't told anyone - not even my mother! I had a couple more, but I ended up telling her on the way to Vernal this past weekend.


tearese said...

Good for you. I'd say write them in your journal, but if you're like me your blog may have become your journal, in which case it may not be a good idea!
I have always had a hard time sharing things I was thinking (well, up until a few years ago.) I didn't realize it was a problem until Joseph pointed it out. I'm getting better though!

Cardine said...

Yeah. I've tried, but I can't seem to not be able to tell people some things. It's like, I want them to rejoice with me in my successes, and I feel like I need to confess my stupidities to someone.

I was thinking about it, though, and lately, I've been a little better about the filtering. Some things are really just mine. I don't need to tell them to someone. They're mine. And when I feel like I need to tell someone, I pray. But, that person already knew it, anyway, but at least I can talk it out.

So, now you've got me curious. What is it that you're not telling us? :)

Katie Michelle said...

I know what that is like. I am the exact same way. I think I'm going to try "filtering" as Cardine says. I'm way too open. Thanks for the blog, you got me thinkin'!

Myke said...

Come on .. tell me.. I'm dying to know!

Adam said...

I think I'm just the opposite. I tend to keep things to myself way too much.

I've always thought how open you are is very cool, though I can certainly understand the desire to keep some things to yourself.

julie said...

I write everything in my journal, at least the important things. I figure that no one will read it until I'm dead, so I can be brutally honest when I write.

Cardine, I like the word "filter"; it fits how I feel quite well. I'm still going to tell most of my life to people, but I'm going to filter some things and keep them private. Probably not many, as evidenced by the ONE thing I haven't told anyone. I had another, but I told Lonna today.

BTW, I hate it when people tell me they are keeping something secret and won't tell me. I always think, then why bring it up!?!? So, I apologize for doing it. I never said I was perfect. :)

Adam, thanks for the compliment.

c jane said...

Last year was dedicated to keeping a quiet heart...I did pretty well except it was really, really hard. I am with you girlfriend, it's a huge lesson to learn.

booklogged said...

I find as I grow older and more bizzare, I mean eccentric, the idea of not saying everything that's on your mind is a good thing. Now if I could only put that idea into practice!

sarah said...

Let see... does your "secret" have anything to do with what you plan to do in Las Vegas? That's still a mystery to me.

julie said...

No it doesn't. I have told one person about the reason I want to go to LV, but they don't realize it. Sorry.