Sometimes I feel like I have things I want to write about that wouldn't be enough to fill a full post. Times like this, I decide to write a "bits 'n pieces" post.
1. Awhile ago, Adam reminded me that it's okay to dream and to pursue those dreams. He gave me a fantastic analogy about Tarzan and uttered the inspired words, "At some point you have to let go". Inspired, I tell ya. My heart hurt as he said it, and I knew it was what I needed to hear, and what I'll need to do in time. I was in a coma, a dream coma, where I was kind of numb and a little lost. I thought pursuing my dreams was irresponsible and was scared to try. Now, I'm finally waking up from the coma and am ready and excited to start living life, pursuing my dreams, having adventures. Yeah!
2. Last night, Cardine compared deciding to marry to being in the pre-existance and deciding to come to this life. When we made that choice, we were told that there would be tough times, miserable times even, to go along with the gloriously good times, and that in the end, if we continued faithful, the reward would be inconceivable. I admit that, more often than not, I tend to focus on the scary, tough aspects of marriage instead of the good possibilities and the end reward (eternal life with the person I love more than anyone else). Cardine's analogy put a few things in perspective. Who knows, someday I may actually choose to get married! Maybe.
Thanks, you two. I love good analogies and both were perfectly timed.
Sometimes I wish I were more of a photo-taker (NOT a photographer - there's a difference). I wish I had pics of my apartment to show those of you who haven't been graced enough (or in town) to visit. I'm also not in the mood to go into too much of a description of it; I just want to say...
I love it! It's teeny-tiny and the kitchen is practically non-existant (though better than when I moved in, thanks to a hutch my boss gave me and a kitchen cart I bought), but it's mine! All mine. I don't share it with anyone. If I decide to leave my water bottle on the end table when I go to bed, I know no one else will see it (it will be taken care of when I wake up - I can't stand a mess!). I can roam around sans clothing, and I have full use of the refrigerator. Full use.
My mom asks me everysooften if I get lonely. No. I don't. Not at all, in fact. When I want to talk to someone, I use my handy-dandy cell phone. When I think the apartment is too quiet, I turn on the TV (PBS) or the radio (one of the two country stations). I read a lot, I cook, I entertain visitors, I watch TV, I sleep. I don't have time to get lonely!
I saw my ex-crush, Anthony, yesterday. He came to have me retube his hearing aid. After I had done so, we talked about movies coming out this summer, or that have already come out. He asked me again if I wanted to go to Harry Potter 5 with him when it opens. Of course, he said this just as my boss was coming into the room. My boss is obsessed with finding me a boyfriend and has always given me a hard time about Anthony. Anthony verified that my cell phone number hasn't changed and said he'd text me (he can't hear on the phone - remember he's totally deaf in one ear and has profound hearing loss in the other). My boss was about to die with glee. Sigh.
I almost hate to mention this, because who knows if anything will actually come of it...but, sometimes I'm a glutton for punishment. Just please don't give me a hard time if nothing comes to fruition. Anyway, I want to write a novel; I've wanted to since time began, but have never attempted it. Right now, I have a general idea about a storyline and am getting a good grasp of the main character and some of the other characters. I can picture them and have an idea of their respective personalities - I'm writing everything down, too, which is more than I've ever done. We'll see if anything comes of it, but don't be too shocked if nothing does. (I'm such a pessimist sometimes!)
Last weekend I went to Kanab to see Adam. We hadn't seen each other for months, and before that it had been over a year. We've talked a lot on the phone lately, but it was tons better talking to him in person. Some of the highlights: he treated me to a private concert - he's quite good on the piano and has a great singing voice - and he didn't even charge me an entrance fee! After eating at a local diner (I had a delicious turkey 'n avocado wrap), he took me on a driving tour of Kanab and showed me some really cool old houses. His sister and brother-in-law had us over to their house for rootbeer floats, then Adam and I watched Over the Hedge (very funny). It was a great weekend.
Hmmm. I think that's all I want to say. Hopefully, you're feeling all sorts of uptodate-edness. (That sounds like something cjane would say - I hope I didn't plagiarize!)